Just some random thoughts, Please do read

 Okay, so It is 5:58 am in the morning, and I am eating an orange, I have not brushed my teeth yet, I just felt the urge to eat something nice and after few minutes of thinking I realized that I wanted to eat the orange, You know I really love oranges, I dont know since when, as a kid I liked or disliled any particular fruits, but for some reasons few years back I had this awakening in me that I like oranges, they half sweet half sour, and fit petfect to my taste, they are juicy, easy to peel, easy to eat, basically everything about oranges is so nice that I think it makes it a perfect fruit, also it gives you vitamin C and thats great I think, 

So why I am writing this here, well the thing is earlier I had a cup of Earl grey tea and now in early morning I am as caffienated as a person should be at 8-9 am in morning on a weekday, but today is Saturday and still I am caffienated, so now my brain is doing some extra background processing unnecessarily, I guess,

You know English is really a very good language, you can learn new words your whole life and still wont learn all the words,

Recently I learnt this word "Catharsis" and I think it's a really nice word and maybe thats what I am doing here, letting my mind out, so that I can feel relieved,

You know writing in monologues can be difficult when you have an inner voice which is responding to each and everything you say, but you cant write that all bcoz again it will become too complex or difficult for a general reader, 

I just wonder sometimes, dinosaur lived on earth for millions of years and how could they not evolve into intelligent beings, maybe some day a dinosaur named Steve said to dinosaur named Kevin, hey Kevin, I feel like there is a greater purpose for it all, maybe we are not born to just prey, eat hang around and stuff, maybe we are here to build something magnificent like "Capitalism" , what do you think ? And maybe Kevin replied , " Nah man, I think we are good" and probably thats why we are saved from living in a capitalistic sociaty ruled by T-rexes or Velociraptors or Pterodactyles, but wont that have been fun? 

Lets look at another scenario, imagine an earth , where humans never born, only horses and just some other animals are born, one day a horse discovers a farm of wild carrots, he ate a lot of them, then called his friends and family, later they all became carrot farmers and many centuries later they developed intelligence and estabilished an utopian horse society where there are enough carrots for everyone, would that have been great ?

What I am saying is that here, I am not trying to prove any points, I am just laying out my thoughts and trying to understand those, 

What I am saying is that maybe nihilism and existentialism are just two sides of the same coin, maybe our life would be much better where we are ruled under dinosaurs or maybe it would still have been as shitty as it is now, just because something is legal and valid that doesnt automatically mean it is just and fair and favourable to you, and just because something is favourable to you that doesnt necessarily mean that it is legal or valid, 

Jokes can kill you and so can the laws, same water can save your life and same water can drown you, a hyperactive thoughts process can help you fight depression and it can also burden you with problems that dont exist, 

Logic system is flawed, deriving conclusion everytime may not be necessary, sometimes a "status quo" or a limbo or a hiatus or a purgotary may be much more favourable than a poorly defined heaven or hell

Rats are basically anti electrons, when you observe them they are mostly a wave, running here and there while their true nature might be to be a particle and just sit and bite something constantly,

What if we are living inside that linked list node that has been removed from the list but not yet deleted from the memory

What if we are the insects infested into someone's chilli powder jar that was forgotten decades ago

What if your ideal male figure was also once as flawed as you are now and what if despite that you couldnt turn yourself around and just live out your whole life being an ordinary person and what if thats a good thing

I mean who knows, right

What if one piece is a joke just like the dragon scroll was 

And what if in the end you figure it all out , you solve the riddle of life and just be content with it

So why not lets just chill for a moment and eat oranges and be cool like Kevin.

- Dk Patkar

Feb 07th 2026